Hubby Is Back; Debt Collector Taken Care Of and It's Raining!!!

My husband is baaaaccccckkkk!!! They arrived yesterday night. Despite being annoyed with him not calling, I truly missed him. And I was right about the drinking, my cousins did take him out and so did my dad. Everyone reported back that he handled himself well and that he knew when to cut himself off. Which makes me proud!!

Today I had a bad day. My check was less than $400. I won't be able to pay for some things we need bc insurance, lawyer, and tickets had to be paid first. I'm glad I bought all that extra formula and diapers last pay check or we'd be in some deep crap. Then, I got another call from the debt collector...at work! I've been trying to settle or at least get some of my fees waived because it was not my fault that I went over, it was the companies. I managed to get what I wanted and to lower the payments!!! So even though I'm still in debt, at least they're giving me a break.

And to end my day, it is raining!!! Lightning and thundering too! I love it! It makes me happy. The sound of the clinking on the metal roof, the way the room lights up, and those big rumbles; got to love a good storm! Emery's sleeping right through it, LOL!!!

Ok, well, I'm off to bed! Tomorrow is my half day and I want it to get here as soon as possible.

Single Mommy Mode

My mother and grandmother left for Lubbock bright and early this morning and won't be back till tomorrow night. Regardless of her helping me out a bit, I have been doing the "single mommy" thing for a few days now. I would like to just say "To all the single moms out there, I give you props! It is hard work doing EVERYTHING alone." But these past few days have made me come to realize that even though it would be hard if my husband ever did leave me, I could do this. Anyone who knows my husband will know that this is a good realization for me.

My husband has been gone to Georgia (with my dad to help relatives move back to Texas), since Thursday. I have received a total of 3 text messages (none were from today). All but one were one-word replies. My mother talks to my dad at least 3 times a day! And that's him calling her!! They won't be back till Tuesday, and my husband hasn't even bothered to call!! I am official proof that girls don't always end up marrying someone that resembles their dad.

So it would appear that my husband doesn't really miss us. I tried texting him today and he didn't bother replying. He hasn't called either. You would think that if you were to be gone a whole week, you'd at least start missing your daughter. Maybe call your wife to see how she's doing, especially if she's having to stay alone. But, with my luck, he's at the bar having shots with my cousins, perhaps my dad as well, and he's having himself a good ole time.

So I have a question: If I'm the one busting my ass, why is HE getting to go out and have a vacation?

Hot Summer Afternoon

Simple News

My baby girl is less than a week away from being FIVE months! The time has gone by way too fast. She is now 17 lbs 8 oz, and 28 1/2" inches long!! Such a tall girl. At first, I didn't think she was that much bigger until I saw her next to another five month old. Yup, there is a difference. The doctor said that either she's going to grow pretty quickly and then stop or she's just going to be a tall girl when she grows up. She owes that to her dad, I’m sure because I’m only 5’ 2”! She’s trying to sit on her own, but she's a bit wobbly sometimes. She's grasping and throwing things, so we're starting to make sure whatever we give her is soft. LOL! Daddy's been hit over the head with some of her harder toys and it wasn't very fun for him. And now she’s trying to sit up on her own! We have quite a ways to go, but at least she's trying now. I'm soo excited!! Watching her discover and do new things completely blows me away. It's absolutely fascinating to me! I could watch her all day.

Right now though, I think she's getting a bit of a cold, which has not been pleasant. Not horrible, but not great either. Stuffy nose, a little cough, and a lot of crying fits seem to be the thing right now. So, if she's not better by this weekend, I'm setting up an appointment for her next week.

I can't stress enough how this little bundle of joy is literally my world now. And with things being shaken up on the home front, she is literally my rock. She's the one thing that keeps me grounded, keeps me still, and yet has me moving forward. And for that, I am truly grateful. Some rough times are ahead of us and I just really hope that we come out the other end, ok. Still in one piece, and still a family.

Whatever happens in life, because of her, I will always come out ok. And I fully believe that.

Rollercoasters!! Or Maybe Not…

I love when people change plans, less than 24 hours beforehand.... NOT!

The past two weeks, everything had been set that we'd go to Six Flags on the 13th with some of Beau's family. I was beyond excited! I love roller coasters, and I haven't been since I was 17! I had to wait to make sure we'd have the money for it before saying yes. My check came in, and we were good to go! My mother even offered to babysit Emery so we wouldn't have to have her out in that 102-degree heat. I had clothes and a little "essentials" bag prepared. I could almost feel the wind hitting me from going really fast, on the Batman! I could feel the heat and the misters!! Ah, the thrills!

 I got a text message today at 3 pm telling me that they had changed their minds, they were going to the water park instead. I think I almost cried.

NO ONE (and I do mean NOOOOO OOOONNNNEEEE!) wants/needs to see me in a bathing suit of any kind. First, I have huge, UGLY stretch marks. I am not even exaggerating (pictures). Second, I am fat. Parts of me jiggle that SHOULD NEVER jiggle. NO ONE needs to see that. I, myself, get grossed out by looking at it. And last, even if I were to get talked into going, I have no bathing suit that FITS, and those are not cheap. So I'd end up spending just as much if not more to go to a water park then I would Six Flags. Did I mention that water parks have never been fun for me either? So even if I did go, I'd have a pretty lousy time because I'd just be standing around watching everyone else. What a waste of 30 bucks, huh?

Nope, not doing it. And with that, my hopes of a day of fun with no worries went out the window...

My husband is still going, so it looks like I will be spending the day with my little one. So in the end, I guess I still win.