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A Few Monday Rambles

All last week I had this pain in my neck, and upper back. A coworker of mine tried to help by using her elbow to rub the knots out. There were a lot. It felt better for a little while, but then I had to use some medication to relax the muscles a bit when it came time to sleep otherwise I would not have gotten any. Sadly, the pain is still there. Not as intense, but just enough to be annoying. I swear, stress and anxiety will be the death of me. Not a very "think happy" start to this post, but whatever.

Today, I’m trying to work out some type of “blogging schedule”- and I use those terms loosely-  that I’d like to have going forward. I’m even jotting shit down in my planner. That's right, totally official. Now, I normally feel like I want to say everything as it comes to mind. Unfortunately for you guys, I’m pretty indecisive, I overshare, and my life is a mess 80% of the time. I usually just shoot from the hip when it comes to writing, but I'm wondering if that may not be the greatest approach? I’ve started to consider doing things “English Writing Class” style. Especially if I want to deliver something better structured, and on point. The dilemma with this is that sometimes I really just don’t want to do that. Call me lazy. Call me unmotivated. But what I write is for the sake of letting it all out. Whatever “it” is at the time. Kind of like what I’m doing right now. So, you see my problem? Anyway, fingers crossed I’ll be able to start posting consistently around the middle of October. 

Now, before I go all MIA again I’m just putting it out there that I have my surgery this week. I’m a little scared because I’ve always had this fear of being put under. I don’t care how “common” or “minimally invasive” the procedure is, they freak me out! Annnd I’m also a little bit of a control freak so I’m definitely uncomfortable when things are out of my hands. I thought if I talked to some other people who’ve had this done I might be better prepared. Yea...that backfired. I’ve spoken to a few people who’ve had their gallbladders removed, and I’ve been given a lot more horrible experiences than good ones. Some are like: “Oh, I was running errands the next day. Pfft! You’ll be fine.” While others are more like : “The pain was so bad it hurt to lay down, or even walk around for a few days. I ended up having to take a week off just to recover. But it’s okay, I’m sure yours won’t be as bad. ” 😒 And in case you guys didn’t read my last post, I can’t afford to take a full week off right now. I’m hoping three days, tops, before I head back. But, however this ends up going down, all I have to say is that they better give me the good shit because I don’t want to remember a damn thing.

Other than that, all I have to say today is that it’s about to be OCTOBER! Our favorite month of the year will begin in six days! The weather is supposed to be getting cooler too! Though with Texas you just never really know. I’ve been trying to catch up on my reading this weekend too. I kind of hit a slump, but then I picked up “November 9” by Colleen Hoover. Y’all, if you’ve never read one of her books do yourself a favor, and check her out. Once I was done with this book, which may or may not have had a writer in it, I started thinking about joining a writing prompt group. Or challenge of some kind. Those still exists, right? I just feel like I should try something different. Seems a little late in the game, but oh well. I hope everyone is doing great! I’ll be spending the next few days cleaning, and getting things prepared for when I’m out of commission. Not sure if I’ll post again this week or not, but in case I don’t:

Have a wonderful end of September! 

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Gettin' You Up to Speed

I know it’s been awhile. And I know that usually after a long absence I spew the same crap about wanting to post more, and getting back to blogging regularly with every intention of following through. However, life happens and setbacks do occur. Recently we’ve had to make some living adjustments, we’ve had to get back into the “school year routine”, and I got sick. Then as all of you probably already know we had a hurricane hit the coast of Texas. Now, while we were not directly affected by it we had friends/relatives that were. My boss man took a week off to go help in the rescue efforts which left us short handed & pretty busy at work. So, the end of August and beginning of September were busy. Full disclosure: Some of what's written below is just me bitching. In my defense this is my only outlet. The nagging part is in "paragraph" four. If you know me in real life then some of this is old news. Anywho, lets get started.

Moving quickly along, the little is doing great in school! She likes her teacher, and knew some of her classmates from previous years. We had a tricky start that first week-- her trying to not cry & me trying to find the quickest routine for drop off/pick up. You'd think it would be pretty easy, but some of the routes take longer than others. Thankfully, all of that has been taken care of, and with only a single misunderstanding in regards to A/R testing (which she and I were both confused on) things have gone rather smoothly.

On August 20th, I was taken to the ER by my mom after a very long and painful weekend. I had already paid a visit to our local Urgent Care, and was misdiagnosed as having severe acid reflux (which I already knew I had) earlier that morning. The medicine I was given ended up not helping at all; the pain became worse. I felt like I was bloated even though I barely looked it, and it became harder to eat or drink anything. Then my stomach became distended, and I can only describe the pain as being in the early stages of labor. So, hours later I was informed that my esophagus was inflamed causing me to have the eating & digesting issues. And I also had gallstones which were giving me gallbladder attacks/spasms. Neither of the issues were allowing the other to properly heal. After some wonderful pain medication I was sent on my way. Then after a follow up doctor consultation it was decided that yours truly will be having her gallbladder removed in the very near future.

Now, due to these unforeseen circumstances, the gymnastics classes for the little had to be pushed back, and my college plans have also been sidelined. My already extremely tight budget has had to be revised, and we are now in “penny pinching” territory. Unless we see a drastic income increase by the end of October, I will have to let go of a car. Quickly followed by our cell phones being turned off, and letting the internet be disconnected. These are the main “extras” that I’ve struggled to keep up with, or current. Luckily, they’ve allowed me to pay what I can when I can, but that will only be allowed for so long. So, I’ll have to start making some choices on what stays & what goes. Right now we’re hoping that some recent opportunities will bring us some extra income, but honestly nothing is set in stone yet.

And that about gets you all up to speed. So, as y'all can see there have been some slight roadblocks. I'm hoping that with it being so close to the end of the year a lot of this will work itself out by December. This lady could definitely use a break. And maybe a little pampering. Plus, I really really miss the gym. Since I have a gallbladder spasm about once a week I was directed by the doctor to limit excising to short run/walks, and light weights. I'm not a huge fan of the restrictions. But I disobeyed those orders once, and never again. So here's hoping that things smoother over soon. Wish me luck!

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A Reminder; Compliments of Rupi Kaur

Changes ahead. The good, the bad. The hard, and easy. The simple, and complicated. Through it all I constantly remind myself that I am a strong woman. That no matter what happens in my life no one can take that away from me. I'm going to get through this, and anything else thrown at me, one day at a time. Talk to y'all soon. ✌