Unexpected Understanding

On Friday evening, as I was headed home from work, I had myself a good cry. I know it sounds silly, but sometimes it really is all you need. The issues and frustrations of the past month had been weighing heavily on my shoulders, and at the end of the day one short little phone call set me off. Our problems just seemed never ending. HOW would we afford to move? HOW would we ever get caught up on our bills? HOW was I going to pay for my extra classes? HOW would I be able to even afford gas for the drive? HOW? WHEN? WHERE? WHY? And  those are just the tip of the iceberg. At the end of the  day it was all just...too much.

Once I was home I shut myself into our tiny little room and just let it all go. Halfway through my little pity party Emery walked in, and she sat next to me quietly for a few minutes. She patted me on the back and asked me if I was feeling bad. I told her I was having a bit of a bad day, but everything was okay. She then stood up, and took me by the hand while saying "Mommy, lets get ice cream and go for a drive." So, I gathered my stuff, wiped away the tears, and we went for that ice cream and drive. As we headed out I started to play Emery's favorite music, but halfway through the first song she asked me to turn it off. Confused a bit, since she always loves music, I asked if she wanted me to just change the song instead. She gave me this look and said "No Mommy. Off." After ten minutes of silence, she started to hum on her own, and a few more seconds later she started to sing this song:

If you haven't seen Frozen yet, you should.

And don't you know, I started smiling. And laughing! My daughter, in her own little way, knew exactly how I was feeling. I didn't want noise, just a bit of quiet to think. And once I'd had enough of that, she sang me a pretty cool (and dare I say fitting) song. I looked it up on my playlist, and we started to sing it together. It stayed on repeat for a good fifteen minutes of our drive!

When we finally made it home, I wasn't feeling so down. In fact, I had a new resolve to figure things out. I need to have a plan and stick with it. We will get through it, and we will be okay. We're strong, and we're together. I know that our issues won't go away. Our money problems are still there. But, we'll figure it out. And I know that I'll do whatever it takes to make sure my family has everything that they need. :)

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A Short Recap Of The Holidays

Well hello, 2014. That definitely came up a lot faster than I expected. Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and New Years! Here's a SHORT (it only looks long because of the pictures) recap of what we were up to: 
I had the whole week of Christmas off (paid), thanks to a really wonderful boss! I don't know how I got so lucky to find this company but I am truly grateful for it. My first day of vacation was all planned out, when we got the news that one of my aunt's sisters died very unexpectedly (she was in her 40's) from the flu. And that kicked off a very hectic holiday for us. We had family from Georgia coming down again, and family from California coming in at the same time. 

my uncle at the last minute decided to hold up his "gat" and blocked my face :( also this was only half of us
On Christmas night, our puppy Gotham died after getting into some cow patties out at my husband's grandmother's house. As far as we can tell, she probably got into some poisonous mushrooms. She vomited a few times during the day, but then went back to her normal self. I assumed she was just hacking up whatever didn't agree with her because she seemed fine as we headed home. She was bouncy, and playful so nothing seemed out of the norm. We put her in her crate for the night and when we woke up she was gone. :( We were all very heartbroken, and at a loss. This makes two dogs in less than three months so my husband and I have decided to hold off on any more dogs for awhile. Unless something comes up, we won't be seeking to add another fur-baby to our family anytime soon. 

We officially said goodbye to our old house. We gathered what we could bring with us (read: what would fit in a tiny room) and shut everything off at our old house. We left behind the majority of our things that will be boxed up as soon as we find our own place, but for now we'll keep them there. My family has talked about knocking the house down as soon as we're all moved out. It's sad, bittersweet, but the house is not livable so there are hardly any other alternatives. There are so many memories in this house, on this land, and it makes me so sad to see it go.   

We rang in the New Year with Beau's family. The afternoon was spent at my parents house with them, so we were able to spend time with both of our families. But, being the responsible adults that we are, we wanted to make sure that we stayed wherever it was that we'd be drinking at. I don't mean getting drunk either because I had two glass of wine and my husband had 3 beers. I don't like driving anywhere regardless of whether it's one drink or six. So we stayed there with everyone. Our age is showing though because out of all of us only 4 adults stayed up to midnight. And we went to bed shortly after the countdown was over. :) 

I know this says Christmas but it was taken on New Years Eve. I did not take this either; credit goes to Taylor.
So that was our holiday. Our California family have returned to California and the last of our Georgia family will be leaving over the weekend. My vacation time was a lot busier than I had hoped but I enjoyed getting to see everyone. Now it's back to work, and back to school. I have a meeting with a student board next week, and if everything goes as planned my spring semester will start on the 13th. We're also currently looking at some houses and I'm hoping to be in our own place by the end of this month. Fingers crossed! Again, I hope you all had a wonderful time with your families over the holiday's!