Oh boy...
Ok, so, I've been looking at my paychecks recently and noticed something. I am probably the lowest paid employee at my work place. Why? Well because I don't have a degree in something of course. See, our owner is ALL about DEGREES. You don't have one, then you're just not smart, not even if you know more than others. See, it's all about presentation. If they can "show you off", so to speak, then you're GOLDEN!
Well, everyone knows my story by now. Troubled teen, ran off to California for a boy at 19, didn't attend college, came back to Texas, got married, and is now a mother. ALL before the age of 23. Yes, I am accomplished, but in a different way. HA! So yea, I didn't go to college. I worked though, and damn hard too. I was always open to learning new things, and I was always fast at it too. I did what I needed to, to get things paid.
So, I'm not like all hi-tech when it comes to computers, but I know enough to fix little problems here and there. I know some neat little tricks, and boy can I make a spreadsheet! LOL! Also, counseling, I'm pretty good about handing out advice (sometimes I should take some of it), and I'm a good listener! Then, there's the nursing field. I've never been afraid to work with sick people. I almost want to comfort everyone in the hospital as soon as I walk into one, same goes for animals. Love them! So, I was thinking that those are four fields that I'd be good in. AND after my last check, I started to seriously think about going back to school, even if it was online. I hate being broke all the time, and I work in a place that focuses more on keeping you down than raising you up. I've come to the conclusion that I really don't want to be stuck here forever. Plus, WHEN we do go back to California, I want to go with something that I know I can get a job with. Not to mention, I'd love to be able to give EMERY a good life. I want HER to be proud of me.
So, I want a career.
Now comes the hard part. Getting it. I have not been to school in over four years. I can't even remember half of what I was taught and I absolutely hated math and science/chemistry. I'd rather watch paint dry for a year than sit through those classes. I never took my SAT or ACT and so I will have to pass one of those before I can even THINK about attending college. And those are some pretty intimidating tests. I took a peak into my sister-in-law's ACT book (that she let me barrow) and I literally shrieked, and slammed it shut. I shoved it as far away from me as I could and have not opened it since (that was three weeks ago). But, if I want this as bad as I think I do, I will have to open it up and start studying. Like yesterday.
I have no idea how I am going to do this. I work full time, I have a newborn (3 months last week) who needs A LOT of attention right now, and A LOT of debt to still pay off so my credit pretty much sucks. I can't even get dish network my credit sucks so bad. How the hell am I going to find time to study, and do school work? How am I going to get a loan, much less pay it off? I also barely get 5 hours of sleep, throw school into the mix and I have a feeling I am going to be EXHAUSTED, and even more BROKE. But, I want this. (scratch that) I need this. So, I've decided that I should do this. I'm just scared shitless of the process.
I'm going to take it one step at a time. I've started to look up sites that have practice tests, and I am going to study that ACT book. I'm going to flip through some of my old math stuff and old tests. Maybe find someone who will tutor me? And then attempt to pass ONE of those two tests. If I can pass one, THEN I'll start thinking about college, about HOW to pay for it, and finally what field I'd like to go into.
Any other young mom's out there going back to school? How are you doing it and what are your reason's?? Anyone else that's going back to school, that hasn't been in a long time, have any advice?
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