I Can't Wait!!!

This is BEYOND sad, but I am sooooo excited! LOL! I’m getting my hair cut tomorrow!! Do you have any idea how long it’s been?! I used to get my hair cut, once every 4-6 months. I’d dye it or just change the style. Go get my nails done, some waxing, and just splurge on a good day of pampering. Maybe buy a new top or new shoes. Ahhhh! That was the life! Haha! Yea...

YOU CAN’T DO THAT WITH A BABY!!

Or at least I can’t. Too many bills and I can’t seem to let myself spend so much on myself. I debated on whether or not to take the computer back on SEVERAL occasions and once I realized I had lost the receipt, I thought about selling it.  Really? Who does that? It was a gift, I should ENJOY it. And I do enjoy it, but I can’t help but feel guilty about all the money that went into it and not something else.  Something more important; necessities. Because when I see myself spending on something for me, I see $$$ that could be going to stuff for Emery or paying something off. So when I think about how much I miss getting those days of pampering, I start totaling up the amounts.

Wash, Cut, Style: $60

Nails: $40

Waxing: $10

-GASP-  That’s $110 bucks PEOPLE! Not including tipping or buying myself something extra either. Shit batman! How did I do that?! $110 would buy two big packs of diapers, some milk, baby food for two weeks, a container of puffs, and then still have some left over to buy her a cute little outfit or something! Or it could buy a week and a half's worth of groceries!! And that’s just how my mind sees it! No matter how hard I try to tell myself that it’s ok to spend on myself every now and then, it’s hard to actually do it. I’m not sure how many times I’ve gone in planning on buying myself something and walk out with nothing but stuff for Emery and my husband. Or I do get stuff for myself and before making it to the check-out I’ve put it all back because I’m afraid it’s too much to spend on myself. I check prices on everything, and I’ll debate on whether I need it or just want it. Because whatever I spent on that item, could have gone towards something else, right?! I annoy myself with this, lol! I have no idea if this is ever going to change either?! Is it just a first-time mom thing? Does it wear off? I have no idea!?

But tomorrow, I will be enjoying a nice wash and cut (styling cost extra so I left that out- this will only be $45 with a tip! haha)!! It will be with my old hairdresser again too! I’m so excited! She is literally a miracle worker, and she knows how I like to do things. My hair is weird because it’s not really coarse, but at the same time, it is? It’s thick (the cause of my recent headaches), curly, and it tangles so easily! She has been the only person that I know of, that can actually help me with this. I always left the place with silky hair, cut exactly the way I wanted! So, I am very very excited about this!

And here’s the kicker, I won’t actually be doing anything drastic! LOL! It’s just been so long since I’ve gotten to do this (before Em was born), that I can’t help but get all giddy at the idea of finally being able to have a somewhat “pamper” session! I want my hair to be long again, so I’m just getting her to cut a few inches off, redo my side bangs, and thin it out some because I am so over these headaches! Can you believe it, that’s it!? Told you it was sad!!

But you know what? I’m so excited!! Hahahaha!!!   

p/s Wednesday morning my daughter was up at 4 AM. The sitter said she hadn't slept all day and sure enough she crashed out once she was home. 5-10 PM. We tried waking her up a few times and she would just fall back to sleep, sitting! That was a bit amusing but I felt bad, so I just let her sleep. BAD idea, she was up from 10-12pm before crashing out again! And today, I am feeling it. I am so exhausted, and all I want to do is SLEEP!!!