Well, how have you been? September is in full swing and the leaves have officially started falling in my neck of the woods. The temperature at night is also getting lower - which I love. Halloween decor is being put out and I don’t hate it. If Christmas decor can roll out the day after Halloween then Halloween can begin a month early. We’ve been pretty busy all around, and our move-in date has been pushed back yet again. At this point, it seems like it would have been faster to buy a house than deal with all of the setbacks this rental has caused. Alas, financially, the rental is the only thing we can afford right now. One of the main reasons for this is that I’m taking a nice hit on my work hours while taking classes. It’s unavoidable, so all we can do is wait.
This brings me to school! Back at the end of August, I started my fall semester. I thought I would be getting a bit of a breather because I was only enrolled in three classes. It wasn’t until the first day that I realized one of my classes was an 8-week class. This means double the work. So, I guess it’s a good thing that I didn’t sign up for four classes as I had originally planned. What’s crazy to me is how fast this seems to be going. One of my instructors already mentioned preps for our midterm and I feel like I’ve barely learned a single thing. I’m also taking a business communication class and after the first week, I sat there thinking, “Wow. My grammar is terrible. Who the heck lets me blog??” It’s as if everything I’ve ever been taught was wrong. So yea, that’s how that is going.
Mental health-wise, I’m doing better since the last post. I still cry a lot. I’m still sad a lot of the time. But it’s like my brain is finally accepting that this is just how it’s going to be. So, when the wave comes I just try to ride it out. I let myself think about whatever is rushing through my mind. If I get pulled under I let it happen. I allow myself to feel the emotions as they hit me. I sob in the shower. I have a breakdown in the car as I’m running errands, or I just have a good cry on my drive home. And then it’s over. It’s like I purge it all out and then I’m fine again. And as exhausting as it is, I’m just trying to live with it. Because it takes so much more energy to try fighting it. And I just don’t have that right now. On a side note: I’m not saying that this is a healthy way of coping either. In fact, I’m pretty sure it’s the complete opposite. And if I were seeing my counselor he’d probably tell me that we’d have to start back with weekly sessions - again. Unfortunately, I do not have the money nor time to deal with my issues in a healthy way right now so this will just have to do.
As for everything else in life, things are fine. My daughter is doing great in school. Her extracurricular activities have kept us busy as well. Between athletics, cheer, and dance she’s usually wiped out by the end of the day. This usually leads to early bedtimes which I’m not opposed to. One thing we have been discussing more of lately though is switching her back to her old school. At the end of the last school year, there were a lot of changes happening with the teachers and administration at her current school. There was a lot of talk about problems going on behind the scenes. This was followed by over half of the faculty resigning. As this school year has unfolded there have been a few things that have raised some flags for us. And well, I’m not exactly sure how to feel about it all. While we do enjoy the four-day school week, and the smaller class sizes some recent issues have been a cause for concern. So, that’s where we are on that.
Corey was recently given a raise and a bit of job promotion. We’re very excited about this and it’s well deserved! He’s been entering kayak tournaments and learning a bit more on that front. He spends a lot of his spare time working on either the kayak or the boat. He also founded a local group that encourages other people to go out and fish. Even offering up one of his spare kayaks to anyone who needs it. And he recently re-applied for the local volunteer fire department. He was accepted and training for that started this month. So far, he’s enjoying it. As I said, it’s been a pretty busy month so far. Everyone has some activity going on each week.
I think overall, life is good. We're all healthy. We're all active in some way. We will eventually move into the rental. I'll finally have my dishwasher installed. We won't feel so scattered, and stressed. Eventually, I'll get to go back to attending a daily mass every week. Maybe even sign up for the RCIA classes. The fall semester will wrap up, for all of us. Our schedules will eventually calm down. And I look forward to having slow mornings on my porch with a coffee in hand. I might even find time to finish one of the many books I have started. One day. Hopefully soon. I can't tell you just how much I look forward to that.
