Good Grief, At least Try!

Oh dear.

Do you see that? That outfit, that hair? The lack of effort in trying to look presentable? Yea...that’s me. Hi.

Why yes, I can see that I look like crap!

No, it’s not just a bad day, this is me pretty much all of the time.

No I’m not pregnant, silly! It’s the dress.

You know, I used to have such great fashion sense. Then I went through my “band t-shirt” stage, my corset stage, and finally my “Is-She-A-Slut?” stage. In case you were wondering, No I wasn’t. Then I got married, and a year later I got knocked up. I just going to come out and say it: I blame a crappy pregnancy for my awful look. I was always swollen, I threw up all of the time, and I looked like a damn road map! Still do, if I’m gunna be honest. I lived in loose pants and big shirts. And I always had on sneakers or flip flops. When my feet would swell I would just loosen my shoes or take them off. I also managed to always get vomit in my hair (it was long), that eventually I just wore it in a bun. Still do, if I’m gunna be honest. And my look hasn’t really changed in the two years since.

I feel like this needs to change. Drastically and as soon as possible. Wouldn’t you agree? So, now comes the hard part. How in the hell do I achieve this? When I was younger I had HOURS to get ready. I had MONEY to buy new clothes. I always had at least 9 hours of sleep! Those were the days! I didn’t stress over bills, expenses, or school so my skin was always so clear. Now days, I look like someone who got dressed in the dark! Someone who has never heard of tweezers. And this is really starting to scare me.

So how do I reverse this? I see so many moms, and women my age all so well put together. Hell, I go to school with women around my mom’s age and they are always dressed nicely and made up. I want that! I want to look better. I want to have the time, energy, and put forth the effort it takes to get myself looking better. Presentable. 

I don’t know the first thing about make-up anymore. Fashion and clothes have not been on my list of things to look into, because everything's so damn expensive! I'm lucky if I can buy a shirt from Wal-Mart. Not that there's anything wrong with Wal-Mart clothes. I'm just saying that not even those prices fit into my budget sometimes. And hair? What the hell do I do with it? Mine is usually either straightened or curly. So if it’s straight, it’s just straight. If it’s curly, it’s up in a bun. I have no idea how to even begin to really take care of or manage it. The fact that my face is too round to pull off the shaved head look is probably the only reason why I haven’t taken that route. Well, that and my husband would kill me. Also, like I said before, I’m working with a budget pretty much all of the time. I don’t buy anything unless I’ve planned for it a head of time, and I really don’t splurge on myself. Ever. 

So, where do I START? Because I really need a change. I really need some kind of a makeover. And damn it, I at least need to try. I want to look nice. I want to feel nice again. With my body and my appearance.