Wasted and Embarrassed

I think I’m over drinking for good. This past Saturday was the craziest I’ve been in a VERY long time. I’m talkin' about 18 years old crazy. And that wasn’t always a good crazy. I’m slightly embarrassed. Not gonna lie. I won’t go into the whole night, but I will tell you the most embarrassing part. I flashed my husband. Yup, I flashed my husband in front of EVERYONE. So, I guess, I flashed everyone. Don’t judge, I was wasted. Anywho, there was a bit of arguing (not over the flashing), and then I got all down about being a crappy mom due to my behavior. Yea, I can’t believe I acted that way either. It was a little sad if I do say so myself.

This is not me, here's the credit.

Anyway, Sunday was hell. I had a headache, almost fainted, almost threw up a few times, and my balance was completely off. Em stepped on a piece of glass, and I think it hurt me more than it hurt her. The blood didn't help me feel better either. In fact, it made my stomach turn. Blah! It just wasn’t a good day, and we spent a lot of it napping. My husband is awesome because he didn’t have a hangover so he took care of Em for most of the day and let me nap. He wasn't mad about the flashing, even though I‘m still beating myself up over it! In fact, he said that out of everyone there, only two other people may have seen them, and they probably needed to see a good set of boobs. Still, it wasn't “good wife & mommy behavior”, and I feel really bad about it. But, what can I do? It’s done, my husband isn’t mad, and so I must move on.

Now, I know I’ve said it before about easing up on the drinking. But seriously, this time I think I need to cut alcohol out completely. I understand having a girls night with dinner and a few drinks. Or maybe having a few beers with the hubs here and there. But no more liquor, and I’m sticking to SIX packs only. They get me nicely buzzed and they’re cheaper. Also, I will be spreading these “fun times” apart. Literally, they need to be months apart. If I have any more at all. I really need to quit altogether, but my husband gets offended if I don't at least have a "good time" with him and friends every now and then. Also, I feel like drinking is setting me back in my weight loss which I really don't like. Beer bellies are so unattractive, and they giggle. I already giggle enough, thanks. Plus, I don’t ever want to feel as out of control as I did on Saturday. I’m a wife and a mother for crying out loud! I should be more responsible than that. I should act more like what I am now instead of who I was before.

Other than that, our weekend was good. I still feel sick today though. Gr! But we got the news that our explorer should be completely fixed and ready to go by tomorrow morning at the latest. I'm excited to have our own vehicle again! Finally! Now we just have to work on my husband's license and we will be ready to go! Emery was 14 months as of yesterday and it makes me a little sad. Makes me want another baby so bad. But like I said before, right now is not the best time. I'll check back on that subject when Emery hits 18 months, LOL! Oh! And tonight, the hubs also has game #2, and I really hope it goes better than last weeks, for their morale sake anyway. I hope I actually get some pictures in this time too! Wish him luck!

That's about it for me today. I'm going to go puke now (ewwww) and pray that I get over this quickly! Hope everyone had a better weekend than I did!