Monday Feels

This is what I’ve looked like for the past ten days. No effort. No makeup. Some crazy ass eyebrows. You’re welcome.

Everyone in the office is getting, is currently, or has been sick within the past two weeks. I on the other hand have just felt…off. Body aches, slight sore throat, some head throbbing, chills, and exhaustion. It’s almost worse than actually being sick. At least then I would, kind of, be able to gauge when it would all be over. What I’m experiences right now though, either intensifies or dulls throughout my day. I’ve been miserable. Thankfully our house has been cold/flu free so far. There have been several cases here in our town, but so far things are okay and I hope it stays that way.

Today, I didn't feel like writing on a specific subject. Instead I felt like just getting on here to ramble a bit about what's going on in my head as I sit here. So, let’s get to it shall we? 1) I haven’t read a new book in awhile which has kind of bummed me out. I ended up getting rid of my tablet because, well, I needed the money so now I can’t even buy the 99 cent books to get me through this slump. Kind of irritates me a bit. But this feeling could also just be me going through book withdrawals. 2) I’ve gained a shit ton of weight, y’all. 30+ pounds in the last nine months. I ain’t even going to lie. It has been frustrating, though probably not for the reasons you’d think, and it was completely expected so I have no idea why I’m bitching. I know exactly what I need to do in order to start losing weight again, but at the moment I’m too lazy. So #chunkymonkeylife it is for now. 3) I enrolled in an online course. It’s something completely new, and I’ll write more about it later. After signing up for this course I realized I needed to purchase a new laptop (unexpected expense right there) because my old dinosaur is just not cutting it. We had a good run, but when it takes a minimum of five minutes to start up…well…it’s time. After three days of debating, quizzing one of my computer savy friends, and repeatedly going to Walmart to mess around with the displays they had I finally settled on getting a Chromebook. It should be here next week, and I’m pretty excited about it. Might even review it after the first month? 4) Today marks the start of my “no alcohol” experiment. Now, I don’t really drink "drink". What I normally do is afterwork on Fridays I have  a shot, or a beer (sometimes two) with my coworkers. We talk about the work week, go over some of the issues, or updates with customers before heading home. That’s the extent of my drinking. So now, I’m going to see how long I can manage to go without having a single drop of alcohol. Recently, I’ve just felt sluggish so I’m trying to see if cutting some stuff out of my daily diet will help me feel better. Fingers crossed that this works! 5) I’m really tired y’all. Did I mention that already? And 6) I finally heard back from my lawyer last week, and for some reason just knowing that I’ll be divorced (from someone I still really love) in a few months has me feeling all weird. But here we go, into the final stretch.

That about sums up the past week, or so for me. I’m sitting here with no energy. A closet that needs purging. A house that needs cleaning. A yard that needs some maintenance. A bookshelf that needs to be fixed. Some homework that needs to be finished. A reading log that needs to be checked off. A “100 days of school” outfit that needs to be planned. Dogs that need to be walked. And all I really want to do is put on my PJ’s, hop into bed, and call it a day. Let's hope the rest of the week is a bit more productive, yeah?