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A Few Monday Rambles

All last week I had this pain in my neck, and upper back. A coworker of mine tried to help by using her elbow to rub the knots out. There were a lot. It felt better for a little while, but then I had to use some medication to relax the muscles a bit when it came time to sleep otherwise I would not have gotten any. Sadly, the pain is still there. Not as intense, but just enough to be annoying. I swear, stress and anxiety will be the death of me. Not a very "think happy" start to this post, but whatever.

Today, I’m trying to work out some type of “blogging schedule”- and I use those terms loosely-  that I’d like to have going forward. I’m even jotting shit down in my planner. That's right, totally official. Now, I normally feel like I want to say everything as it comes to mind. Unfortunately for you guys, I’m pretty indecisive, I overshare, and my life is a mess 80% of the time. I usually just shoot from the hip when it comes to writing, but I'm wondering if that may not be the greatest approach? I’ve started to consider doing things “English Writing Class” style. Especially if I want to deliver something better structured, and on point. The dilemma with this is that sometimes I really just don’t want to do that. Call me lazy. Call me unmotivated. But what I write is for the sake of letting it all out. Whatever “it” is at the time. Kind of like what I’m doing right now. So, you see my problem? Anyway, fingers crossed I’ll be able to start posting consistently around the middle of October. 

Now, before I go all MIA again I’m just putting it out there that I have my surgery this week. I’m a little scared because I’ve always had this fear of being put under. I don’t care how “common” or “minimally invasive” the procedure is, they freak me out! Annnd I’m also a little bit of a control freak so I’m definitely uncomfortable when things are out of my hands. I thought if I talked to some other people who’ve had this done I might be better prepared. Yea...that backfired. I’ve spoken to a few people who’ve had their gallbladders removed, and I’ve been given a lot more horrible experiences than good ones. Some are like: “Oh, I was running errands the next day. Pfft! You’ll be fine.” While others are more like : “The pain was so bad it hurt to lay down, or even walk around for a few days. I ended up having to take a week off just to recover. But it’s okay, I’m sure yours won’t be as bad. ” 😒 And in case you guys didn’t read my last post, I can’t afford to take a full week off right now. I’m hoping three days, tops, before I head back. But, however this ends up going down, all I have to say is that they better give me the good shit because I don’t want to remember a damn thing.

Other than that, all I have to say today is that it’s about to be OCTOBER! Our favorite month of the year will begin in six days! The weather is supposed to be getting cooler too! Though with Texas you just never really know. I’ve been trying to catch up on my reading this weekend too. I kind of hit a slump, but then I picked up “November 9” by Colleen Hoover. Y’all, if you’ve never read one of her books do yourself a favor, and check her out. Once I was done with this book, which may or may not have had a writer in it, I started thinking about joining a writing prompt group. Or challenge of some kind. Those still exists, right? I just feel like I should try something different. Seems a little late in the game, but oh well. I hope everyone is doing great! I’ll be spending the next few days cleaning, and getting things prepared for when I’m out of commission. Not sure if I’ll post again this week or not, but in case I don’t:

Have a wonderful end of September! 

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