I Jumped Too Soon

Remember how I said something always goes wrong? It did. Turns out the explorer is putting up a fight and refuses to cooperate. The frame might be bent. Do you know how much that will cost to fix?? A part of me wants to set the damn thing on fire and run it off a cliff. So, now we are looking at options.

So, I was all annoyed and angry over how much of a pain in the ass this car has been. And then I started looking through websites on my break, and I came across Tabatha's Blog. I was crying so hard in my cubicle. I know for my emotional state I probably shouldn't read so many loss blogs. But, their stories and their losses hit me at such a level that I can't help but read their stories. To see how they are doing, and to even say a few words to them. Because I really...truly...feel for them. My heart breaks for all of these moms. I really just want to hug them all and bring back their babies. To set things right. I hate knowing that there are so many little ones taken every day. Some before being born, some during, and some after. And this made me feel so awful. Here I am whining about how awful my life is because of an explorer, and there are women out there just trying to survive. I stumbled across some other blogs but in all honesty...I cleared my history because it was too hard. It was too much sadness. But, I will pray for them. I will pray that every single mother out there, that has lost a little one, gets the healing and comfort they need.

That they deserve.

So, after reading all of these I've decided to start making donations and sending out cards/supplies to some of these families or organizations. So, if I ask for an address I swear I am not stalking you. I just want to know where to send stuff. I may not be able to give a lot. But, every little bit counts I hope. And I want to be a part of finding a cure for things. I want to know that some of my money helped others. Helped educate people about CHD, SIDS, CF, EB, and so many OTHER things out there. I want to know that because of me, someone was able to receive a card, supplies, or just a care package. I want to know that I am helping.